:)

i hate when people talk alll about you like they know you, like they know what you've been through or what's going on now.
hah.

yup, you know me, well i guess i dont need any more attention than i get eh?


cause you know me the best right.

bummer

that it's getting to me, that i'm feeling so patronized it's not even funny. but if you were in my position, i'm pretty sure you'd want to scream just as much as i do. is it because of the outside opinions, have they been affecting my decisions?
i doubt it, because. well i dont know.

i can't even say anything without passing judgment, it's ridiculous. i should get support, not bashed on any idea i ever have. i just won't be as perfect as you i guess.

the worst two weeks of my life

good thing my friends fixed it on my birthday.
seriously,
he said he loved me. everyday was a circus, a bag of lies. i was fed up, finally broke down. it was horrible. horrrible. he broke my heart. i can't talk to him, can't look at him at all. it's not the right time? sure, so drag it on a little longer, yup. whatever. it's great being lied to. friends need to really live up to their classification.
i can not stress how much it is that i love being lied to. straight in the face. yup. it's great. you know what,
i'm glad that i've got such good liars as friends, i'll be sure to ask them for help if ever in need to get out of a pickle.

on the upside, i do love my friends, my good friends. branching out, finding good people to be with. it's good.


speaking of good, thank you for the surprise, my birthday was fantastic :)

i realized how much i'm going to miss tyler, steven, and kyle.




and roman knows how to make me smile by remembering everything i've ever told him about me, enjoy.

once upon a time there was a princess and she was walking in her garden when all of a sudden a huge green and gold with hint of purple dragon swooped down and took her. the king called upon his bravest knight to save her. so the brave knight traveled across the grand canyon and a glacier to a dark cave where the dragon lived. the brave knight went inside and saw the dragon sleeping and the princess unconcious. the brave knight woke the princess and took her outside to safety. he then went back inside, and to his amazement the dragon was awoken. the dragon and the knight had a good long fight. and the knight showed who was boss and made the dragon into his pet. so the knight then took the princess on a tour aroundt he world onhis green and gold with a hint of purple drangon. and they lived happily ever after forever!


:)

haha

once a tease,
always a tease.


gotta learn from mistakes,
stupid.

i hate

girls. period, such drama queens, such btches.
yeah.


you know what else i really dislike?
when tomboy-ish girls have huge boobs.
they're not even asking for them and they get them,
yup.


hahaha.
oh & i hate moody moms,
& change
& getting things taken away from me
& being treated lamely all over again


sigh. i looove it!

who else

hates when their friend is a jerk and is just retarded?
is it just me, am i being too harsh?
if so, please tell me.

i'm just allergic to jerks, that's all.
and lemme tell you,
i'm having a deathly reaction to this one.

the new year

yes it has already started, and i've had this uneasiness of school. it's slowly dawning on me that i'm not as intelligent as i wish to be, and it sucks. i hate not understanding things, academically and otherwise. it's so frustrating, and i'm just trying to be as good as i can but then there are those darn distractions and those losses of slef control. eep, and the worst part is me knowing that i need to stay focused and me seeing myself drifting away. haha that's the ultimate sadness. sigh.
i need to buckle down.
i need some smart juice, can you buy that? sigh.

anyhoots, umm new years was pretty great. actually went to chelseas and kyles, had ablast. going to really miss those seniors next year, sigh. haha and yeah, responsibility is my middle name son, ;) haha
i miss dancing, i need it. not ballet though, i mean i love ballet. i need like.. lyrical. i need it stat! bahh..

but yeah. did i tell you that i was quite over all the crap drama that goes on and about. but you know what, i have realized that i actually do keep grudges, but i'm just able to override them i suppose. but they're still there, deepdown. which is pointless i know, but i can't elp myself. sigh, girls, boys, all the same. all stupid. all pointless factors of life to make you feel good or bad.

speaking of boys, it'd be super excellent to be taken by one, but slowly actually very quickly realizing that i am just not anything special in anyone's eyes like that, you feel me?
it sucks yeah,
but what can i do about it?

nothing!